03 / video

[onlysurvivor]

This is supposed to allow us to contact others from home now? Just for today?

[he clears his throat]

All right. If you're listening, I'm sorry I couldn't tell you everything and that I had to die to make it work. I know you've heard this from OreSeur while he looked like me. I know it's not quite the same but it was the best I could do.

You'll make the world green again. I just wish I could be alive to see it.

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[godsays]

I'd left my father. She turned me away. I had nothing left.

[onlysurvivor]

You had yourself.

[godsays]

And what is that worth?

[onlysurvivor]

I don't know. How much do you think you're worth?

[godsays]

I'm not worth kindness. I'm not worth saving. Ask Vin, and you'll find I'm not even worth respect.

[onlysurvivor]

I'm not asking you what you think other people think. I'm asking you.

[godsays]

And that was my answer.

[onlysurvivor]

Zane. [His voice sounds like he's scolding you because he is >( ]

Fine. By that logic, I'm worth no more than you.

[godsays]

You could do what was necessary. I couldn't.

[onlysurvivor]

You don't know me, Zane. Not well enough to say that.

I never killed my father even after he had my mother killed and tried to kill me and my brother.

I never joined the rebellion, I didn't see the point. I wanted glory and a chance to take everything that was taken from me. I liked to kill noblemen. I could pretend each of them was my father. A loving man who would turn into a monster the moment he learned your blood was wasn't pure.

[And now he's yelling. Good Job, Zane.]

I thought I was betrayed by the one person I loved more than anything. Her death never relieved that pain IT ONLY MADE IT WORSE.

Don't you dare tell me what I've done was necessary. Everything I've done since then has been an apology to her!

[godsays]

[ Zane is stung - and then he is furious. ]

Then why am I supposed to admire you? Why am I supposed to trust you? What are you worth as a warden?

[onlysurvivor]

Because I CHANGED.

[Then calmer:] And I don't want admiration. I've had enough for a lifetime.

[godsays]

I don't want to change. Not if more pain is what it gets me.

[onlysurvivor]

Pain is what caused the change. I didn't have a choice, neither do you.

[godsays]

I've never had a choice.

This is only worse because now I'm trapped on the ground. I can't even fly. I have nothing. And it's you - you and Charles - who keep me there.

[onlysurvivor]

Your powers won't free you. My powers never could.

[godsays]

Is that an excuse? To chain me down tighter.

[onlysurvivor]

No.

[a beat] What if I had the same restrictions?

[godsays]

You don't. You're a warden. You can't change that.

[onlysurvivor]

I can stop using my metals.

[godsays]

That's your choice.

[onlysurvivor]

Let's say I make it and only use the metals you have access to.

[godsays]

That's still your choice. It's still something you can do, and take back.

[onlysurvivor]

So is not giving you metals. When you truly need them, you'll have them as long as I do.

You're just going to have to learn to trust.

[godsays]

You denying yourself does nothing for me.