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This is supposed to allow us to contact others from home now? Just for today?

[he clears his throat]

All right. If you're listening, I'm sorry I couldn't tell you everything and that I had to die to make it work. I know you've heard this from OreSeur while he looked like me. I know it's not quite the same but it was the best I could do.

You'll make the world green again. I just wish I could be alive to see it.

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I don't care. He used me unpleasantly. You used me to kill.

I did not want to be a killer.

Neither did I.

And yet there was something inside me. A spike that it used to rewrite me.

[He shouldn't, really. But everyone knows, now. And Zane is dead.]

And I have four. It drove me to strangle a friend. I killed myself first.

You are a creature of Ruin. But you still had a choice.

...a creature of what?

What you call the Voice. You are human. Even with a spike, it could not force you.

[Which of those last two words had the emphasis? Hard to say.]

It - brainwashed me. It changed the things I could think about. It made me insane.

It twisted you, you are a twisted thing.

You still chose.

A man shouldn't kill his own father.

A kandra should not kill at all. Let alone his brother.

What does your father have to do with it? He didn't force me. You did.

He told me what to do.

You were not under contract. Humans disobey their fathers all the time.

I loved him. I hated him for all the cruelty he did, but I loved him because he was my father.

So you chose to use me as a weapon out of love for a monster.

[His assessment is unmitigated.]

You broke the contract to save Vin. Why didn't you break it to save your 'brother'?

To break the contract is unconscionable because it endangers our people.

I believed Vin would save the world, and the kandra with it.

And what basis did you have for that?

My reasons are my own.

[It had been more emotional than calculated, in the moment. But the reason, at the core of it, was true. The world had been ending, and Vin seemed like the only one even searching for a way to take it on. She was an allomancer who was not like other masters. She gave him hope.]

You had no idea I was capable of that when you commanded me to kill my kindred. I had no idea. I wasn't, then.

It was how I was taught the world had to be. The users, and the used. Which is it better to be, then?

Do you think that makes it all the same?

[He sounds less bitter now, just - tired, and solemn.]

I have been used longer than you can imagine and by more men than I care to count. But never worse than by you.